Today is Monday 6th October 2014 and I am grateful to be here.
Alcohol almost took my life combined with sleeping pills. I am only alive because I rang the ambulance to say that I overdosed. I must not have really wanted to die. A very close call.
Those of you who get upset about my posts don't read on and please don't comment. I am warning you now the rest of my post will be upsetting as it is to me. I am only posting because I need to offload and refocus.
On Friday 26th September 2014 I went to the GP for a normal checkup and to get my normal meds. We had a discussion about how much progress I have made in the last couple of years with my attitude toward drinking and it was all positive. We decided that I should come off one of my normal meds (for anxiety) and doctor said "you will not sleep for a couple of days so I will give you some sleeping tablets but YOU MUST NOT DRINK WITH THEM". That was great, I was in a positive frame of mind and went to the chemist and got the script filled. The day turned to custard - middle child sleeping around and having unprotected sex with a possibility of having a STD. I used any excuse but the gist of it is that I decided to drink and take the meds and ended up in ICU.
I called the ambulance because I realised that I had taken pills with alcohol. Woke up in ICU but my poor family were traumatized. Things not been the same since.
Anyway, aside from all the drama I am pleased to be alive and take life on lifes terms.
I have been following your blog and never responded before.
ReplyDeleteI am so very glad you were able to call the ambulance!
Sending you a big hug!
I'm also glad you called the ambulance..time to get some professional help?i been trhu hell and back and about a week ago I asked for help and you can do it.lots of love to you and your family.x
ReplyDeleteHi Cherie, I've been looking for your posts and worried about you. Glad you are still here with us. Maybe when you are celebrating your one year sober milestone this time next year, you'll remember this past week as your 'bottom' or your kick start to sobriety. I am back to early days myself and want to do this with you. Raising teenagers is hell on earth; no doubt. Try to remember that as time goes on, they do grow up and become responsible adults. Today's drama will really not matter in five years. That's what time has proven to me. My most difficult child who attempted suicide and drove me to wanting to die is the proud, amazing mother of a child of her own now. I told her to enjoy the baby now while she still doesn't think her Mom is an idiot. LOL.. Cherie, we are in this together. Please guard your life; you are worth it!
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