Saturday, 19 JUly 2014

It is 9.54pm and I have had a great two days.

It really is amazing how everyone (in my family)  bounces back from a bad day. Yesterday, I refused to go out in the morning and as I mentioned I finished a novel and got out of bed late. I have now started the novel mum gave me.

My lazy kids did not get out of bed until at least 1pm but I have decided not to "sweat the small stuff" so did not get too bothered about it. I just went ahead and did my own thing. Around 3pm my middle child came and said to me "Mum, you haven't done anything with me in the school holidays and we go back to school on Monday, would you take me and my sister to the movies?". Initially, I thought no, I could not be bothered but then I thought I should relish the fact that she wanted to spend time with me.  This is a first for any school holidays for a long time. She normally can't wait to get out of the door and we struggle to get her to come home1 Off we went an hour later (record time for my girls farting around with showers, hair and make-up) but we made it. We went and saw "Fault in our Stars". I almost died when I got the tickets and a couple of bags of lollies and three small drinks - $65! Oh well, it was worth every penny. I really, really enjoyed the movie and the company of the girls. I did not even mind that they teased me about crying in several parts of the movie. We got home around 6.30pm and I was still sober and had not even thought of drinking. I must always remember these times when the monkey on my shoulder tells me it is OK to have a drink. Sat down and watched Coro and then went to bed and started my new book and read until 11.30pm. That is a miracle in itself that I managed to stay awake and it was great going to sleep naturally without anything assisting.

It was fantastic waking up this morning with no guilt and just feeling happy. My husband and I even had a silly funny discussion about pathetic things as we were doing the grocery shopping. We spent far too money much because we were just chucking things in the trolley! Oh well, it is moments like that that remind me that the real me is still in there somewhere :).

I went to an AA meeting which was great and then did dinner and ironing. Boring, but it was also lovely because everyone was in the family room watching TV, or doing their own thing but we were together. This is a very rare event in my house and even my son came out and we all swashed onto the sofas and talked and had a laugh. We were watching MTV for a bit and there were old Queen and Guns n Roses songs playing. I think our neighbour must have thought we were nuts and probably thought that no one in our house could sing!  We were trying to see if we could meet Freddy's high pitch. Dogs hated it.

Sober Wife shared in her blog about talking about some drinking embarrassments and I agree it is very healing. I have found that by just writing this blog I am dealing with my demons in a much more productive way. I am still not 100% sober but I really have made progress. It is all thanks to all you lovely bloggers who share your stories and your lives. As Mrs D said in one of her posts it is like having a huge hug from your cyber friends.

That is all for now. Off to read my book in peace before hubby comes up and complains about having the light on. He much prefers coming to bed with me reading and sober than passed out, smelling of alcohol and snoring. I wonder why? :)

Cherie xx